today i don't feel quite good. i am not saying my health but my mood. i don't know why i am in bad situation. think about things i have done the day. maybe i can figure the reason out. in the morning, i had a difficult-to-understand lessons. then i had another journalistic lesson in which i almost say nothing to my classmates. what happen? i have no idea. i think i have losen the passion. is it because some people? she just talk about boring and useless thing. i don't want to listen any more. to some people who show no respect to others, i see it no need to have a gossip with. they are born to behavior like this, what should i do? i know i shoudn't blame myself for something like that. coz it's mistakes committed by others. however, i still feel uncomfortable. i tell myself everything is gonna be OK. don't deal with things too serious. well, i am trying to think this way. 

anyway, hope any one past their smooth lives.

god bless all of us! 

     天气开始发生微妙的变化，台风过后夏天的气息似乎真的渐行渐远了，空气中弥漫的满是秋天的味道，散落在刚从衣橱里拿出的外套上，渗透在由棉垫代替席子的床板上。秋天的萧条，清冷，寂落常常让我陷入低沉的思索，不时还会有阵阵阴风向我席卷而来，刺入单薄的身体，直沁骨脊，不喜欢它的深沉与萧条，不过那凄美得让人窒息的秋景还是值得细细品位的。夏去秋来，时节不断更替，我也在经历蜕变的过程，有的时候觉得自己永远长不大，在父母的呵护下，不能说集万千宠爱于一身，却是不折不扣的在洋溢着爱的氛围里成长的，是不是因为经历的挫折太少了，或许是的，可是如果一个人经历得太多，诸如诚实真诚的品德已然蜕化成城府虚假，还不如不要刻意得追求历练，还是顺其自然的好，我希望自己在挫折的熔炉中磨砺品质，濡养精气神，成为一个有思想的人。有些人因为家庭的变故人生的变数不得不历经曲折的人生，它是一把双仞剑，善用之则强之，误用之则伤之，谨慎行使为好。

     我还不够洒脱，对于自己喜欢欣赏的人，因为没有契机或者太多顾虑，无法自由表达自己的情感，更多的是用实际行动表示自己对她们的信任，可是机会太少了，沉默不代表漠然，矜持不代表不在乎。

     我相信，只要怀着一颗真诚善良的心，甚至可以与上帝对话。